Here’s a thought.


We are the same. No matter how much we strive to be different, if you really look deeper you will find the same. Yes, perhaps we have different cultures, morals and standards, but they all derive from the same core. Jealousy is a universal emotion that comes without language or gestures. Like a fire that burns deep inside, even dogs and cats experience jealousy, you know when you pet one and the other squeezes in for a rub? Jealousy is thought of as an evil emotion, however without lust or love it wouldn’t even exist. No matter who you are or what part of the world you live in, this emotion can control your every thought, the only difference between different human beings is how they choose to act on it. Are you outspoken? Maybe you say you are jealous or you make a comment. Perhaps you are to yourself and you bottle it up, festering within until it consumes you. We are all the same and yet we find differences, but you will only find them in actions. Jealousy is only one of several mammal emotions. Are we so different after all? Do you think we wouldn’t hunt like a lion of we no longer had food at our disposal? That if we didn’t have money in our bank we might not steal for some bread? Our actions define us in perspective but there is so much more we battle internally. The saying “walk in my shoes” is among the truest. You would never know until you were put in a situation of another. As you see, our feelings are not any different, how we chose to act upon them are what spectate the world for good and bad.


Finding yourself again.

When you are younger, the biggest question is “what do you want to be when you grow up”? Now that I’m 23, I still have no idea of what I want to be, however I do know a lot more about what I don’t want to be. I don’t want to be dependent. I don’t want a relationship to change or control who I am. I don’t want to party for the wrong reasons, I don’t want to get caught up in what everyone thinks life is suppose to be. I realize now when I was asked what I wanted to be, i took it as a career choice they were asking, but now what’s more important is “what kind of person do I want to be”? When you really sit down and dwell on this question you might find more problems then you thought you had. Who are you? That defines what you do, where you go and how you get there. Who am I? I don’t know, I spent all this time only to come down to the conclusion of I don’t know who I want to be. However, I know what I don’t want to be. So maybe I am one step closer to figuring the question of a lifetime, out and finding myself again.